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EXAMSSSS!!

Stress stress stress!!! I’m like super stress this few week especially this week because it’s the exam week =.=..

For the past few days, i have been out to study with JH and wx ba~ HAHA hais.. i wanna go out.. can someone jio me out please? :/

Hais.. 1 more week before everyone is being separated.. Im so going to miss u guys for sure de.. even though im like quite emo in class right, but i’m like a completely different person when im outside de.. ^^ but i really hope that everyone could be in the same class for the next 2 years ba~ (:

YAY after all my exams , holidays are COMING.. but i don’t understand something why is it

I’m like super awaiting holiday and i felt that this year shall be a fruitful year for me because there’s like so many surprises cum outing cum shopping cum coding for meeee to do.. as u guys know that i’m a coding queen wahahahaha~

So holidays faster come faster come... exams shoo off u go ^^

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Live my life for myself or for my friends?

Hey im back to update my blog once again~

i wonder how should i start first.. valentines cum cny, some troubling stuff, cny second day..

valentines cum cny~

went to ah mah house and bai nian. As usual mum was there nagging at us when we took our own sweet time to get ready before we set off to the temple.. hehe and stayed at at mah hse for about 3 hours? it was like super boring when she talks about the grandma story to my mum again and again.. hais.. me, sis and adam were sitting there sleeping, eating and watching tv.. and it was super boring again.. After that, we headed off to popo's house and to bian nian again.. hais.. a super boring day.. But at least i managed to receive like 2 -3 angbao from my relative today? HAHA.. and thats what i am happy about today.. but i just wonder why should cny falls on valentines? hais~ im feeling really sucky when cny falls on valentines.. cny really spoils the valentines mood. I could have went out on that day~ :/

cny second day~

first up, my family and i went over to my uncle's house (mother side) for our brunch? then went over to my first uncle (father side) to bai nian cos heard mum saying tht their son just return back from the detention center( he never went for NS, therefore he is supposed to go to the detention camp for 3 years). Went there to eat again.. YAY! but my family felt very left out. =.= because we are not close to them as we see them once every 9 years? please can you imagine that? and they were like sort of look down on us? just because we are not as rich as them =.=

Never mind my family and i just hate them.. so arrogant people. The rest of my uncle and aunties are talking among themselves.. that makes us feel very left out.. We feel so awkward when meeting.. "i wanna go home" this few words keep flashing through my mind.

When my third uncle is distributing the angbao to us, he suddenly pass me a gift (of cos an angbao too) and told me that it is a mp3.. i was like kind of shocked? cos im not so close to them yet they still give me a mp3? but nvm i can use them.. and i don't need to borrow his ipod le.. YAY! but still im sure to miss it ~:/ sorry im wearid

When we were taking a family photo, i felt as if my smile was fake? I just could not smile naturally when i'm with them? So i just fake a smile out? But i felt that my smile was so fake..

Next up, went to er jiu's factory and slackslack.. haha.. finally dinn was at ah yi's house.. and it was like super fun cos its like steamboat cum bbq dinn~ help out with all the preparation before our dinn was ready~! phew.. enjoyed my dinner today.. that was the best part of the whole cny.. and the ang bao keep coming.. when i count the amount of money i have receive, it should be over $2o0 la.. YAY!

some random troubling stuff~

Hey im sorry to ps u everytime..i really dont mean it de.. And don't keep thinking that you are the last priority.. hais~ you shouldnt always let me do things the way i want please.. cos sometimes i just feel like its very unfair for you lol.. hais.. seesee told ya, i shdn't have been involved in this~ sometimes i really hope that i could be spilt into 3 parts.. 1 part for my family, 1 part for my other friends and 1 part for ya ba.. hais life is so tiring! if that's the case, i wont have any time for myself! ARGHS! whywhywhy!

Between friendship and relationship, which one will you choose if you were to be given only one choice? Which one do you think its more important to you?

Hais but for me, i felt that both are of equal importance.. they are friends who treat you so sincerely.. sometimes i just can't make myself to hurt them.. but under certain circumstances, i just can't help it! i just hate myself! WHY AM I LIKE THAT! I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND..

Even though u reassure me that u r okay with it, but i still felt that its quite unfair for you~ when i put u in my shoes, i felt as if im someone who is so EVIL! keep psing people!i'm really sorry that im not perfect.. even though i have tried my very best to be one~ maybe i should just stay at home on wed to study alone.. so that i wont hurt anyone.. if i were to hurt anyone, i'll rather that myself get hurt.. or maybe both get hurt rather than either one gets hurt~ shit how can i possibly forget that u are not free on fri.. hais~

but still sorry to ps u every now and then.. but don't worry i'll try my very best not to ps cum disappoint u again okays? Its really difficult to find anyone who is so understanding towards me

sometimes i wonder whether i live my life for my friends or is it for myself? :/

YAY done with my post le.. okok.. i'll blog again soon de okay?

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